Chemicals schmeicals...

what has it been? 5 weeks? I'm usually on top of this blogging thing. But lately I've been falling asleep and well - there goes blogging for the day. oopsie.

yummm...I like food. Lately I've been trying to figure out the why of why I stuff my face right? well, you know all this research has been coming out saying that sugar is addictive like crack cocaine etc. (Here's the article my trainer just gave me)Well, I'm going to have to agree; but at the same time, I think that more often times then not I LIKE the food. I actually WANT the food, rather than having the chemical imbalance in my brain dictate blah blah blah...F-that. Sometimes I just WANT the food point blank. You ever see something that *looks* yummy. Not even smelling it or anything. Just the fact that it looks yummy. Or the memory of a good, yummy experience creeps back up in your mind related to one of those foods - it makes you want it right. That's not a chemical imbalance, that the pure art of wanting.

Right now, my current habits reflect this pyramid flipped upside down:

and for the record, I was doing great with forcing myself back into action. Unfortunetly, it seems as though I do great, but there's one meal where I kinda lose it. But the good thing is I'm jumping back on the band wagon immediately after. Sheesh...I'm gonna get this right? (In my mind that was a total negative thought saying, "i'm never going to get this") gotta love that perpetual negative self talk *sigh* That's another blog though.